I can only smile back

I speak what I not ought to..
I know I should not, but the words in voice are brought to..
But it's not me, I'm forced to
as I try to fulfil what others exaggerate that I have to adhere to...
else am a fool.

So in order to be 'cool'
I marginalise the 'thoughts of mine' and come to the forefront

In the meanwhile, the concoction of mine (thoughts of mine) and my attempts to fulfilment creates a visible dent..

The character of diplomacy, too, is ambiguous to me..
It takes time to sink in...I lose it easily
maybe there the thoughts of mine find themselves in a maze
and to whom I pray is up there over me, mocking

I can only smile back!!